I dont know if anyone ever played the RTS game "Axis & Allies" by Atari, but it was a pretty solid strategy game. I recall building up a huge army of tanks and infantry, and invading an enemy controlled area with the confidence of a god. Then suddenly the screen flashes and I see my army melt away in ball of fire and ash. The enemy just dropped a nuke on me.
I recall my gut sinking and just an overwhelming feeling of defeat overcoming me. I went from possible victory to definite loss.
I had a nuke dropped on me today. And as much as I HATE for my blog to be all sad and shit, these are just the events of my life.
For one, I found out that I may owe the government $930 since they fucked up with my college payments or something... I honestly am not even motivated to call them and find out what went wrong, or if it was just a mistake.
I did manage to pull the trigger on a project that I have been brewing for a while, and I started on the website. I think the idea is solid, and this is step 1 to me being a multi millionaire with my idea. And I sincerely believe that.
So upon finishing up the payment info to purchase the webspace, my card gets declined. I check my bank online to find that I pretty much dont have any money. WHY? I havent bought shit in a long time. I quit eating out, and I bought canned goods to hold me over and I STILL dont have fucking money. The short answer is that I don't make enough.. I am a manager at a hotel, and I'm pretty sure I make the same amount of money as the other front desk agents. In fact, I'm almost certain that some of my employees make more than I do.
I dont know if I have any grounds to ask for a raise since my performance hasn't had a huge positive impact.
I have to find another source of income or I'm just going to be fucked.